nothing more than nothing

im getting crazy. im swinging on my chinup bar like im swinging on a swing. im bouncing on my bed like its spring. im eating so fast i finish my dinner in 2 mins.

is this what gcc will do to me? but i have yet to take anything out of it yet

what will become of me next week?

i just saw a pink colour, used condom downstairs on the grass patch beside the road

im glad i changed blog add and many ppl dont know. i dont really know the reason for my blog but maybe it just serve as a companion to me. when i feel bad, angry, sad, disappointed, happy or what-so-ever, i will blog it up. i think at least it help me to open up slightly.

so thats it. GCC starts next week. i feel like im going to be back in cadet days again. just that i wanna put a 4-white-bar cadet rank which can nv be found anywhere because im simply like an officer getting whack like a cadet and it stops at 3 white strip. so i wanted a 4 white bar so that it can give me power. the black bar sucks my power again.

so on this fine day, after the new commanders come into picture, the GCC intro begins. thank goodness im not really involved today because we have been orientated already. but poor yc have to go through with them like men. however i know that i will kana appointment so its not a blessing actually.

i cant blog bout anything else except thing cos nothing have been happening to me. absolutely nothing.



sometimes i feel lonely. i feel like talking to anyone but no one is there. i feel like sitting there and stone but no one is stoning with me. thats why i go home. going home is a cover up of my loneliness.

i miss that feeling

fuck. its being confirmed that i have to go GCC.

its totally fuck up cos they had stalled me for so long and then eventually tell me NOW that i have to convert with them. its bullshit cos i dont give a damn bout that damn tab. its worth not more than a toilet entry to me.

its bullshit really. now i have to prepare my fieldpack and all already. its being left accumulating dust already and now its going to be used again. fuck up cant i be excused? cmon someone break my leg during basketball this weekend so i can escape this meaningless shit.

i cant believe or think how does this help to make me a improved person. esp by the looks of andrew yeo i seriously dont think so.

FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

im spending my birthday in camp getting whack and my weekend being confined too!


if its a must to go through, i hope it is shorter. or at least make me feel that there is a purpose of it.



make me forget everything

PIGEON

yay so i change a blog add. at least i dont feel stupid with it. though this blog add cant be much smarter. i also decided again to remove the tag board cos i think its rather useless and i dont think im interested to see the comments of anyone.

simply cos i broke my bag yesterday when i was back in NEE SOON camp thus i put that. going back for PKE, i saw quite alot of my old mates. fat and skinny. i realised im not the only one being out of shape. haha juisern is much worse. he felt like a bloated pig. i heard kyle seet had evolved into cow shit already. fat like a lump of it. but yes i miss the sessions i have with them. cadet days were the best with all friends

then i continue venturing around with a broke bag. carried it all the way in my arms and im happily treating it as a form of exercise to strengthen my arm muscles. i guess it helps cos my bag is REALLY HEAVY thats how my bag managed to snap twice on me. grr

thought of getting one bag while roaming vivo but i did not. i just went to city chain to remove parts of the ORD watch. talking bout the watch, i think the extra 2o i paid is almost as good as throwing away le. nabeh

and YES! im on duty again. i hope i get more next month so i can avoid GCC and at the mean time accumulate more points so that they dont touch me in april to may so that i can have a happy ORD.

OH THAT SOUND FAST

im starting to think. whats the purpose of having into a relationship at this age?

companionship?

true love?

or what it may be? someone needs to enlighten me bout this.

i still cant seems to find the reason to it, or how should it be to end it. simply put, how easy is it to love and how easy is it to let go? chim. chim topic.

so, valentines day became a normal saturday, then to a DO day. what more can i expect of the future weekends to come?

i need new training program for my daily life, personal life especially. i cant think of anything to slot in anymore. for instance:

SAT
morning - basketball
afternoon - xbox 360
evening - sleep

what kinda training schedule is this? fuck up lol

i have been not reading my brisingr. i think the book is lookin older than it should be already. damn that shit cost me 30 bucks. i should double up and hasten the progress.

meanwhile, i cant wait for the mem card to come so i can start off my left 4 dead, nba 2k9, fifa 09, battlefield bad company, and call of duty. grr when will they come?

how easy would it be to remain as friends after it end. will there be efforts coming in to show that?

and everytime i talk bout relationship i reminded of bebe that asshole. i hope he get his ass banged by some gay fuck along desker road. ever since he got together with yumei he had met us for less than 10 times last year, and NONE so far. u ought to die. really.

and, nvm. thats it. should i change a blog add?

hi. thanks to ex DYS1, LTA CLARENCE LIM that i did duty yesterday, a last min activation.

fucker he is. cb he is. i fucking hope he burn in hell

though i had no more valentine anymore, i stil rather stay at home play the new games that finally arrived. and yes im playing left 4 dead and it seems fun. very kancheong game. and along with devil may cry, fifa and battlefield.

my weekends will be filled again!

lets walk out of this. walk, walking, walked.

hi its me again. im so bored and im so depressed. so many things that can easily do so, with a flick of finger

tomorrow the bn going to have ord parade. then another half will ord nx week, somewhen. then left only the ptps attached out to bravo for the 1 month, leaving us with almost nothing to do. whichever, the case, the possibility of GCC just make me wanna puke. i have done almost half of 3core as per ex CO le, now wanna cheat me. nbcb

nice songs, slow songs, sad songs keep repeating on mp3. nice shirts, nice jackets, nice presents, cards and letters all of u or from u. magnificent stack of them when i pack my cupboard just now.

outstanding. what can i say

hi, so its a day, without somebody.

felt like askiing hows lunch, or hows your day. but kept it within myself

should have went to sing song instead of movie that day. should have. many of those words

so the bn ord this sunday. good. leave for the cv life as its supposed much better

army can drive one crazy and im stepping into it soon.

just bought brisingr. could not resist it at all. 30 bucks gone just for it

confirmed what i read online that there will be a book 4. damn

more money will be wasted as more "blood" shed in the book

so, this is today. wow and its it for my duty deployed there. finally come to an end. actually i rather hope i dont leave the place cos i really dont wanna go back to camp. that place make me sick, mentally and physically. thought of gcc even worse

but thank goodness they going to ord soon. a mass of them ord this weekend and another half will ord nx week. then next friday is the ord function, the one that gave me ultimate shit. but once its done it should be over already.

so much for a new year. things happened here and there, there and here. whenn things change, i think there must be another change for that.

anyway, i just finish my "eragon" and "eldest". wow its great and i feel like buying "brisingr" and continue now since its all up in my brain now. all the fights. im loving the book. sad to say the movie was piece of shit and i bet it will be as good as LOTR if directed and planned properly.

so should i get it?

so should i do it too?

so time flies so fast. my bn going to ord soon. in just less than 2 weeks time it will be cut down to bout half of them left. then after another month, left with a pathetic 5% and i will be inside getting arrows. but nevermind! cos if that time comes, it means my time is coming too

went to my uncle house and i land my hands on nintendo wii again. i still gotta say the same thing. the graphics sucks. but it still have some compliments from me. think its great if you want to bond your family or likes to host party at your house. it can surely be made to full use for such purposes.

act so much. bout kfc and mac in the end no one wanna eat. soooooooooooo....

i ate

and when i went to buy those at tiong bahru, i was wondering why everything is sold in pairs. eventually before i go home, i realised.

valentines day is coming again