nothing more than nothing

one of my biggest day since my enlistment is coming. i can feel it. the anxiety, the fear. it had possessed such strong power of devouring my courage ( although it could be a lil only). BUT still, my balls shrunk like i never had them. (whao)

i cant tell what. hiak hiak. its a secret. for ppl whom already know, SHHHH! its an entirely big secret. i cant tell till i get it done with

im anxious. starting to read up more information with regards to the questionaire. so much to learn, so little time. fuck

whatever the case, 1 more week to pop. CORPORAL LO! ASLC jus passed out this friday. sergeants liao lo. yea they are all so happy and so are we. these bunch of section mate rocks man. i dunno where i will be posted to and im scared. i dont wanna go ASLC. i dont wanna go back TEKONG!

AHHHH!

its been ages since i last blog. 2 weeks ago yea?

this 2 weeks. things have gone much slacker already. alot of admin time now and then. but there is alot of physical la.

after the CBRE thing, i started thinking. should i give a shot at CBRE or jus admit life and go ASLC. i saw how the delta personnel do everyday. everyday seems to be outfield. life seems like a poo man. it sucks there

blah. whatever. did SOC twice. one is spectacular one is fuck up. the first one i did my timing is 9.07 min. its nice. however the 2nd attempt is disappointing. i was unable to clear the low rope. i was so close, SO CLOSE. like fuck like that. cb.

then did IPPT test. i got a gold!

pull up- 10
sit up- 48
broad jump- 234
shuttle run- 9.9
2.4km- 9.17

i think quite good at running. lol

anyway, yesterday i went for CBRE round 2. only left with 70+ ppl already. i didnt manage to complete the course as i didnt manage to clear the last obstacle. its bout doing a puzzle. the bomb suit is so heavy and the visor fogged up like there is a 1000 smoke grenade. but im pretty glad i didnt give up.

i think my body is tired but i got SOC test on wed. i hope i got to the right rope with friction and clear it once and for all.

nothing but disappointment

argh. my eye is hurting so much. i think that my right eye is swollen. somehow. which how did i make it swollen i dont know. all i know now is that it hurts alot and especially this morning. i woke up with mucus there and i cant get it off because my eye lid hurts simply too much. i couldnt rub my eye like how i normally would and i cant do anything bout it. neither do i know what to do bout it too. all i can do now is to rest it as much and try not hit it again.

did someone hit me ?


well, its all over now. all the fucking field camps. no more field camps will come in my way. field outing and training wouldnt be an issue as they doesnt require me to stay anymore. the things that we execute at field camps, im starting to know them good. caught 2 spiders on my side. my friends, they got some scorpions. whatever the cases, this field camp is fast over with campfires on 2 nights. oh i miss that feeling

this coming week will be short. we will be booking out on a wednesday thanks to depavali. then thursday book in, friday book out. fast week i guess. nothing else but physical. and will spend 1 and 1/2 day on chemical defense too. hmm

i went for the recruitment tests for CBRE defense force. Chemical, Biological, Radioactive, Explosion ( if i didnt remember wrong) . i dont mind going there after i pass out from BSLC, that is provided i can make it there. if i go there, life might be better. no more field camps, SOC and others, its nothing but urban. but the training is heard to be tough. anyway the recruitment test last for 3 hours! 7 tests to do. IQ test, maze test, and the blah blah tests. but no worries despite coming back on a sat to do, its over!

happy 20th birthday to u my dear. i hope u had fun. zoo and stuff =)