nothing more than nothing

today is 30th september. firstly, happy anniversary baby =)
im gonna meet her later before i book in later.
book in timing is 2200. so i think its better than in tekong
cos must meet at 7pm like that =(

so, life in sispec isnt that bad
in a sense its pretty relax, at least for now
but its pretty bad cos im in plt 4 so i stay on 5th level
everyday i wake up i see the OCS tower
and bebe jus told me bout his turn out,
turnin my night into a bad one.
but oh well, what to do?

my plt is pretty small, consisting of 37 ppl only initially
then, 7 OOT/OOC, so left with 30
pretty little, how long can we last before we have to close down?
so out of these 30, there are quite some mild obese or obese ppl
our mission there change to "helping them pass"
oh well, as a plt, what to do?

did some physical training at SISPEC in the first week
CPT, SOC, endurance run etc etc
i think monday is going to be IPPT catergorization test.
i hope to do well and try to get a gold at the end of the day
gold is important, i can use it to help in my final hope

i still hope to cross. though, i kinda given up

argh. sispec for what?
i wanted OCS
FUCK I WANNA GO OCS

whhy is it like this?
those ppl who goes to sispec are not those that will work hard
not all la but it seems like alot is those ppl that writes "wanna go command school"
but yet on the other hand they didnt work hard to go command sch
so what do u call this?

its not fair. ARGH!
F U C K




I WANNA CROSS OVER FROM OCS!

wow. i heard to cross over from sispec to OCS
is gonna be top 3%.
god its tough.
that means 100 ppl only 3 go OCS from there
fuck man.

why did i screw up my days in tekong?
i dont think i screw it up.
what did i screw?
i still cant tell.
FUCK

cross over.
work hard work hard. ARGH
that is my one last chance to go OCS.
do it or die

"if u had one shot, or one opportunity to seize everything u ever wanted, in a moment. would u capture it or just let it slip?

fuck, im going to sispec.
i wanna go ocs so badly
why did i sia?
must be cos of gpa.

im actually getting myself prepared for this already
but somehow i cant get myself to believe that
i dunno how to tell my mum and dad
its disappointing, really

the expectations of them, myself, and friends
its been thrown all away
fucked up
how?
i wanna disappear from the world.
i feel like going on awol.

FUCK. I DONT WANNA GO SPEC.

im home. went to club for the first time of my life.
i think i jus wasted my money and time
oh well.

clubbing isnt fun
maybe i aint feeling high enough
maybe we are all not high enough
i think so
so its kinda boring
but whao, i nv know transexual go club
and go to trance section. LOL
i also saw 1 guy being grind by 2 girl
WOW

o anyway i ran into elmo they all too
so i spend awhile longer with them before taking bus home
feeling so tired
a good night sleep is nothing but neccessary

lastly, a video.

ZULU WAR CRY

pioneer batch of zulu coy. legancy shall live and never be forgotten

POP lo!
finally liao. its time to pass out
it felt so fast.
i thought that we are starting to have more fun but its coming to an end
but an end to this chapter will mark the beginning of another
so jus hope for the better

today its so much fun.
yesterday too
so much photo taking, ppl disturbing and so
its so much fun and joy
will miss those people

they went zouk for party tonight
im a lil too shag to go and thus rejected
of cos, there are more reasons to come and only the reason knows the reason
complicated?
no, not if u are the reason
lol

this 10+ day break
i wonder what will i do
k box? lunch? meetups?
whatever it is,
i know that it will go by fast
i thought i should make a proper use of it
but im tired to think now

so ciaos.

im almost late to pass things but i fucking hack care.
im gonna be late YAY lol
i brought home soooo many things already,
leaving only the neccessary stuffs like toiletries etc

3 MORE DAYS TO POP

omg so excited.
cant wait to leave tekong as its killing my brain cells
and my 2.4 timing is out.
9:49 min for 2.4
it isnt bad, but it could be better next time =D

but things aint that bad in my section
we had fondue that day lol
no doubt, IN TEKONG
haha! steady steady poon bee bee

i wanna get a PSP
guess i have to start a hunt for it soon.
wonder if douglas lobang got mem stick with it anot
hmm. wonder wonder

im home!
fucking hell for the first time i book out on a sat
it doesnt feel good again cos its so rush
but its common to be rushed
every book out is in such a rush
BASKET

whichever the case
the good news is
tml
1800 fall in at pasir ris
prepare to take bus back to SFT to TFT
and back on the tekong highway to rockyhill
SIAO

6pm?! i only reach home at 4+ or 5+ today!
its like WAO
asshole
argh and i got so much clothes being washed
i brought alot of my junk home already
there only left with basic items left
hahaa its coming

P O P
its coming!
12th september is my pop!
and soon then we will know our posting
i hope i can go into ocs
moo

ippt i got silver
i ran 2nd in my section for 2.4, i hope its within 9:45
however my pullup lacks 1 to qualify for a gold
if not i could be more motivated for a gold
darn
but its over already
so be it then

for the coming week
monday is gonna be our hell trip- 24k route march
damn im not quite prepared
i have to buy some drinks, some snacks and blah
and im bringing my fondue in to do fondue!
hoho how much is that doggy in the window?
(no link)

the rest of program i aint sure
shd be a re-test for SOC cos its cancelled this week due to rain
then there will be live grenade that seems to be a whao whao stuff
then i dont think there is much stuffs left
so.. so be it

fuck it i have to book in tml
and i have to sleep early today, if possible
COS IM SHAGGED like shaggy the dog

i wanna get nan quan mama album,
the secret dvd
and blah blah.
so many wants, so lil pay
darn