nothing more than nothing

fuck, im going to sispec.
i wanna go ocs so badly
why did i sia?
must be cos of gpa.

im actually getting myself prepared for this already
but somehow i cant get myself to believe that
i dunno how to tell my mum and dad
its disappointing, really

the expectations of them, myself, and friends
its been thrown all away
fucked up
how?
i wanna disappear from the world.
i feel like going on awol.

FUCK. I DONT WANNA GO SPEC.