nothing more than nothing

i went beach road to look for a book but i couldnt find it at the 2nd hand shop at beach road. damn. then i walked all the way from beach road to bugis to look around, hoping to shop but dun have the mood to. went to the new bugis shopping center and i think its a fine place, with alot of space, and it provides almost everything u want in that area. movie, arcade, shops, restaurants etc. almost a you-name-it-i-got-it place.

just dont have my book

then i continued to bras basah and there i tried alot of shops even the most messy one. but still in vain. its a @!#$!^%*#(*& thing.

then i encounter fort canning and i tried to cut across from PS side to clarke quay side and although i believe i took quite little time, its an amazing feeling to cut across alone in that place of war. plus all my war story books, i have alot of feelings there, as if where is ideal for ambush or such. haha

then i walked to clarke quay and it started to rain.

#@!#^)%#!@$^) again


i think im weak nowadays. my mind cannot stand much and it is quite easy for me to reach a piss off or break down stage. some thoughts can slowly just lingle into me and i will kick and punch to get it out of my brain. but it still continue stabbing somewhere and i cant figure where they attacked from.

im not strong enough. i need to be stronger. both physically and mentally