nothing more than nothing

this should be my last post to this blog.

everything comes to an end. now this blog does. months ago i have come to it too, thought not entirely.

now, its the end (:

goodluck and goodbye

goodnight stranger (:

argh i thought i can work at food fest before the uncertain APEC but now it seems uncertain too because of too much clashes of sch and work. i initially thought working from 17 to 23 july but then it seems like it crashes badly, with 3 days commited to sch. the food fest is not a day only but is actually a whole day thing and i dont want anything to crash with anything. i want more money. maybe this is when i shd get a proper job.

maybe i shd really consider so.

i went beach road to look for a book but i couldnt find it at the 2nd hand shop at beach road. damn. then i walked all the way from beach road to bugis to look around, hoping to shop but dun have the mood to. went to the new bugis shopping center and i think its a fine place, with alot of space, and it provides almost everything u want in that area. movie, arcade, shops, restaurants etc. almost a you-name-it-i-got-it place.

just dont have my book

then i continued to bras basah and there i tried alot of shops even the most messy one. but still in vain. its a @!#$!^%*#(*& thing.

then i encounter fort canning and i tried to cut across from PS side to clarke quay side and although i believe i took quite little time, its an amazing feeling to cut across alone in that place of war. plus all my war story books, i have alot of feelings there, as if where is ideal for ambush or such. haha

then i walked to clarke quay and it started to rain.

#@!#^)%#!@$^) again


i think im weak nowadays. my mind cannot stand much and it is quite easy for me to reach a piss off or break down stage. some thoughts can slowly just lingle into me and i will kick and punch to get it out of my brain. but it still continue stabbing somewhere and i cant figure where they attacked from.

im not strong enough. i need to be stronger. both physically and mentally

work work. finally its coming to an end. and its kan shag i tell u.

#)!#@^)%$!##@!#^)%

why is there a "Y" behind everything in my blogger? haha i certainly sucks at whatever script they call it. HTML? whatever. i cant use it for goodness sake and im trying to look for a nice yet simple one on blogskins but to no avail. not like i really care actually. haha