nothing more than nothing

oother than this, happy birthday kenny. 23 already this year and well u are all alone out there to start your own career already. its so coincidental that his ORD date is his birthday. its a double joyous day it means. initially wanted to go to timber to have drinks and chill cos chun boon dont wanna go club. but last min everyone wanted to go phuture cos the ppl ord-ing today are getting ppl to go. same for me as my BMT mates msg me to go and chill too.

so we went leaving chun boon behind. for me, it was one more

so we clubbed and we saw for the first time chris pick up girl. normally we go there rot and go home. in fact, i dont really love clubbing but i go because they asked me to. honestly man, that is no joke bout it. and when i see him pick up girl i start to think bout it. is that what guys come to do and what girls come to do too? are guys there to pick up girls and girls there to be pick up by guys? i dont really understand the logic of clubbing

all i know is it makes me tired, body ache, and unwell. maybe i shall quit it, though i didnt do that often. but yet often enough to make an impact

so now that i have ord, what should i do? am i really to rot and die at home? and wait for SIM's stupid letter? i have no plans for anything, thats right. and i still have no intention to plan for. i just know i have to work before i start my first sem( if i ever get into) . and i might have to work part time if i am to continue to graduate from SIM, cos i cant allow my parents to be bothered by my school fees and my allowance too.

life sucks. i shouldnt have ord.