Wednesday, May 02, 2007
So many things, so little time.
So much regrets
Sometimes i get real mad. Why am i being brought to this earth? Is it to torture my parents, my friends, and the others? I think so. I bring so much shit to people. Why am i still alive? Could u take back the life u gave me?
Am i supposed to grow from this? Am i supposed to learn something out of this one? Is that so?
If its really so, what am i to learn? God. Save me. Im going berserk. I feel the urge to end my EVERYTHING, including my life.
Why? Why is this happening to me? Why MUST this happen to me? I wanna run, run away and never return. But i cant, im stuck here. Im tired. I need a break. I cant move on anymore.
I thought i got some good friends, new or old. I thought they might be able to pull me out of this. At least, just, do something to make me feel better. I dont know man. Some bothered to do a little, some gave me a push instead. Others? They just dont give a fuck.
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Do u understand? After so much i had told u? No, u dont. I dont know what more can i do. i tried the "hard method" and the "soft method". But both ways didnt work out!
She used that "thing" again. God thats the only one thing i cant take. And damn, i cant take it once again.
Whats the point in u breaking down and not letting go? Whats the point of me breaking down with u because u dont wanna let go? Maybe we should both let go, it could be doing us a favour. I know its going to be tough on u. Its gonna be tough on me too, though it wont be as much.
Do u think we are both happy now? What makes u think we will be happy in the future like this? Whats the future gonna be like now that the situation turned out like this?
U told me not to mention the future. Alright. But eventually, sooner or later, "future" is gonna come into the picture man. Do u get that point?
Somethings doesnt work the way it should. Some things in life, there is no back tracking. For example, moving on a "One Way" lane. Yea? Fucking Bullshit.
i saw a very interesting slogan at work. Yea, when im still at PKH. U know what it writes? It says: "Look Back, Move Forward".
Makes me think. Look back on my mistakes, and move forward. It applies for u too my dear. I really hope u can do so too. We have to move on.
ARGH. This whole entry is just a crap one. No one bothers anyway. i myself cant be bothered with myself. Im really tired. Mentally i mean. Some brave soul, please take my life away and send me to hell.
So much regrets
Sometimes i get real mad. Why am i being brought to this earth? Is it to torture my parents, my friends, and the others? I think so. I bring so much shit to people. Why am i still alive? Could u take back the life u gave me?
Am i supposed to grow from this? Am i supposed to learn something out of this one? Is that so?
If its really so, what am i to learn? God. Save me. Im going berserk. I feel the urge to end my EVERYTHING, including my life.
Why? Why is this happening to me? Why MUST this happen to me? I wanna run, run away and never return. But i cant, im stuck here. Im tired. I need a break. I cant move on anymore.
I thought i got some good friends, new or old. I thought they might be able to pull me out of this. At least, just, do something to make me feel better. I dont know man. Some bothered to do a little, some gave me a push instead. Others? They just dont give a fuck.
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Do u understand? After so much i had told u? No, u dont. I dont know what more can i do. i tried the "hard method" and the "soft method". But both ways didnt work out!
She used that "thing" again. God thats the only one thing i cant take. And damn, i cant take it once again.
Whats the point in u breaking down and not letting go? Whats the point of me breaking down with u because u dont wanna let go? Maybe we should both let go, it could be doing us a favour. I know its going to be tough on u. Its gonna be tough on me too, though it wont be as much.
Do u think we are both happy now? What makes u think we will be happy in the future like this? Whats the future gonna be like now that the situation turned out like this?
U told me not to mention the future. Alright. But eventually, sooner or later, "future" is gonna come into the picture man. Do u get that point?
Somethings doesnt work the way it should. Some things in life, there is no back tracking. For example, moving on a "One Way" lane. Yea? Fucking Bullshit.
i saw a very interesting slogan at work. Yea, when im still at PKH. U know what it writes? It says: "Look Back, Move Forward".
Makes me think. Look back on my mistakes, and move forward. It applies for u too my dear. I really hope u can do so too. We have to move on.
ARGH. This whole entry is just a crap one. No one bothers anyway. i myself cant be bothered with myself. Im really tired. Mentally i mean. Some brave soul, please take my life away and send me to hell.
// posted by Pang Boon Peng @ Wednesday, May 02, 2007 
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