nothing more than nothing

so, hows life? im basically talking to this dumb dumb blogger.com whenever i feel fucked. lol so funny.

i was home just awhile ago, tml going to sao mu for qing ming. it happens once a year, so just go for it lor. we will get prepared at...around...3am? fucking hell early. zz but who cares? i dont need sleep neither do i need a rest. mr robot

today went to submit my timesheet to get my pay. probably on monday? finally got abit of money. fuck im running low on cash. got some kaching at the right time. abit shitty la.

after which i went her house, slept, and read book. eat dinner at IMM, then went back home after sending her back again. home sweet home

WGS is coming. fucking happy. will get involved in the running around and crazy hours. so glad. means more cash, and more good night rest (just because i will come back at 2am TOTALLY SHAGGED) . so what then? after WGS ends on the 29th, what should i do? im thinking of extending it for perhaps, 2 weeks after WGS? for money, not PKH. no friends at work, dont regard them as i guess. hi and bye? chat abit here and there? yea, chris say we will go durian after WGS. fuck it. after WGS all will go back to their normal life. who will give a fuck bout it? we shall see again la hor?

seriously starts pitying myself. how many friends i have? how many do i actually contacts? let me see ah, minyi/barbara, thats 1. bebe, tuyuan, yong meng, uncle. thats like, 5. raymond, that makes it 6. ok. FULL STOP. lol. 6 friends. pretty miserable seh? my msn is as stagnant as some mother fucking shit la. maybe once in a blue moon got people chat with me. no blue moon today.

PITY , PITY, PITY.

and what now? back to the same old shit again? yea i believe so la. seriously dunno what the fuck is all this thing about. mood are never good, spirits are never high. so fucking bored of life.

SIBEH SIAN AH. NBCB BASTAAAAAAARD

haha. HELL FUNNY LA. my godbro gf actually wanna send a mushy mushy message to my godbro but she accidentally send to my house phone. thank goodness is my mum pick up and she dont know what its talking. anyway, we dont have to hear and we can guess. lol

today, work is as bullshit as ever. after work went to eat KFC with siuwai siumai bebe. after which we was walking to the terminal. i went by a mini book store. i saw one of the book by anthony horowitz, the alex rider series. then, I BOUGHT A WRONG ONE! 1 correct and 1 wrong. damn shitty. tomorrow morning must go change. DARN!

anyway, i had only one book to buy before i complete the series.

1) Stormbreaker
2) Point Blanc
3) Skeleton Key
4) Eagle Strike
5) Scorpia
6) Ark Angel

anyway, i edit the lyrics for "Heaven Knows" for genevieve the noisy aunty supervisor

"she's always on my mind
from the time i wake up, till i close my eyes
she is everywhere i go, she is all i fear

thou she's so far away
fear just keeps getting stronger,everyday
even now she's Off, im still fearing her

so tell me how do i start
because she is scaring my heart
i really want her to go

maybe she ought to die one day
only devil knows
maybe she ought to be dumbfold
only devil knows
and all i can do, is hope and pray
that she will go"

lmao

darn. carter drag the game into OT with this damn ball. charlotte lost after which. is there goal tending? piang oi~

anyway, look at this rodman clip, and please watch till it ends

shit happens at work. i got scolding twice. fcuk. aiya i dunno wat the fuck i gotta say. i dunno how u feel too. i read your blog, because i feel that u received shit. i cant say i know how u feel, but definitely fucked up.

that chap who said that, we all know he is a fucker and certainly a direct one. i really wonder if the decision to ask u to work with me is correct. i wondered for awhile already.

initially i thought we could earn money together. with heavy working hours and loads (supposingly), we are supposed to be buried under work and earn money at the same time. yea i know before hand that i will get shit, maybe it didnt turn out pleasant. i aint sure bout it. at work, i feel that im being make used of. but at the same time, im afraid u might think i am making use of u too, cuz i keep asking u to take things for me. i dunno, i aint psychic, i cant read mind. i need to know things, but i cant find a way to know. so back to the same o' point,

FUCK WORK

friends? do we really regard each other as friends? everyone? who shares secret? who share times together as friends? do i still have friend? some true friend? yea, who are my best friends? ray? ty? bebe? and her? im not sure if they consider me so but i surely do consider them as true/best friend. but in fact, how well do i actually know them? i actually think that i dun know them well at all. fuck. how true friends are true friends? am i true friend to any one? im not sure.

everyone keeps their own secret. will i say my secret once people ask? am i only waiting for people to ask for my secrets? anyway, what secret do i have? i also dunno. when u ask me, i will say? i think i will. as long as u bother to ask, bother to listen, i think i will share. how many of u are willing to share your secret with me?


ps: i am tired. its 2:52 am now. i got no england match to watch and im pissed. im disappointed with myself, as much as im angry with myself. is it all my fault in fact?

im bored. i wanna watch england v israel. I WANNA WATCH!

god damn it. well, its a sunday. then a monday and there comes another working week. TIRED! i am tired!

later going out with her, most probably to suntec city. wanna look for yet another cheap and nice story book from carrefour. sorry im too cheap. lol. anyway yea, thats what im intending to do.

i got a book from carrefour that time. its called "death from the woods". its a real nice book, real exciting. its a thriller book. its uber nice. i love it

i want more rap songs. i wan jin's album. support chinese man yo.

haha guess work drive me insane. its alright, i can take those things man. work isnt that tedious. GC isnt giving me enough stuff to keep me occupied. im practically surfing online and getting paid. pretty shitty man, i wanna work, not slack around.

anyway, its my birthday again tomorrow. some lunar birthday? YAY

haiz. whats with me and all these? secrets and arguements? what are they about? does they mean anything?

fuck. one day im so gonna screw michelle that fat gorilla up. her sacarstic laughter and her attitude speech that pokes right into people. fat bitch. u try that again? u are quiting and im not giving u any fuck shit called respect. u dont deserve any.

only bebe accepts ur bribery of curry puffs. because he love michelle and genevieve. on top of these 2 gorilla, there lies a koala bear.

she got this friend called amos who she called famous amos. i called him fucking anus. that is the most suitable name on earth for a cock ass shit master like him.

he claimed to pay for a "service" rendered to him. we "worked" for him and he didnt want to pay after that. some fucking gay shit.

hey baby, get that cock ass shit master to come to this blog, or give him my no. ask him to come find me for a nice ass pokin session. thank u

i need a new blog skin and i wanna change a new URL. HELP! HELP ME FIND A NICE AND SUITABLE ONE!

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anyway, workin all day. tired, but im not complaining. shit job, but i aint angry. but there is one thing i cant stand. THERE IS NOT ONLY ONE AUNTY NOW, BUT 2!!! omfg. they are uber noisy and im gonna snap at one of them soon. =D

haiz. miss those day with vic and sam. more fun more joy though im bullied more =<.

today is my first day of work. it was a tiring day, a long day too. didnt really do much in the office to clock in the 8 hours. basically sitting around and slacking and doing a little bit of reconciling.

WGS is only opening on friday. i heard results are releasing around then too. im scared. im really scared. i wanna get throught and out of here. can i? can i do so? haiz

after work is all done, i went vivo with bebe. he wanted to look for stuff but it isnt there anymore. so after slacking around and so, we went back and im back home at 930.

long tired day. need a good nice rest tonight

look at this lil bastards




these kids are too rich and too bored. i went to search for this toy online, its sold at 100+ ! fuck those sadist!

my work will be starting real soon. i will start work coming monday. have to prepare a couple of stuffs before i start. i havent fill the employment form etc. how much difference can work bring to me? how much difference can work bring to her? how much difference can work bring to us? i dont know

5th march

my birthday. had invited some friends together to eat dinner at my place. ray ty bebe and her. good food being served to good friends, all thanks to my MUM. crabs, rays, pork chops, PCC (popcorn chicken wanna-be). lol. then after that, we played ps2, played mahjong, and i am the sole winner of 50bucks! omg the first time such happen. birthday luck must be. after everything, i send her home, and cab to my chalet

$20 bucks PLEASE! dont make it into a BAD DEBT

6th march

i reach the chalet at 1230. they prepared cake and stuffs and blowed candles and such. well i didnt get hantum, im surprised. lol not that i want to anyway. then we played mahjong. i thought my luck would extent but once its over, its over. lol. so i lost 7bucks there, and we go take break.
they played indian poker and im the only guy that didnt lose. so lucky. lol. after awhile we gather again and mahjong again. at the end of the 2nd round, actually wins back 7bucks, but due to some unforseen circumstances, we decided not to play money. anyway we played till morning, and my hand trembled. took 2 hour rest and continue slacking after that

7th march

morning we watch barca and liverpool game. very tired. went back, bath, and all like dead fishes lying around. then we slept for yet another 2 hours, and off we go.

extras

after the chalet, i went to town to pick her up from school. we had lunched together and i send her home after that. rest at her house. sleep like a log. then ate pizza and GO HOME! HOME SWEET HOME!

I MISS MY HOME!

cmon i know its my fault that i overslept mum, u woke me up at 10 and i wake up only at 11 to do the stuff u want me to. i knew u called me mum, i know that. its not my fault that she flared at u. i didnt flare up against u. i should have woke up just now, i know i should. i slept for just an hour more and everything changes. after that, sister left, and left a mess for me. before she go she gave some bullshit to them, slam the door, and leave the house. cool. now im getting those things again. 2 versus 1. U LOSE. i mean i lost.

i really didnt mean it to oversleep on a day like today. why get so worked up when i didnt flared at u, and got up a lil later to do it? though u already dont want me to do and done it already. but seriously, if u feel better scolding me, scold alright?

hey lady luck, dont walk away when everyone walks away. u cant leave me alone. DAMN. god damn it. COME BACK!!

darn. after she left me, u left me too. every thing i bet i lose. everything i do turn out like some holy crap. what the fuck is wrong? really suay till like that? 2007 is such a GOOD year for me for all this holy shit that had fallen on me. what the fuck u want me to say?

"OH LADY LUCK PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME!"

smlj

thats my idol LOL. he belong to one of the lousiest team in NBA T_T

anyone in search of job?

pay: $1000-$1200
location: serangoon. near serangoon garden sec. Lichfield Road
days: monday-friday
time: 9-6
dress code: formal

interested? let me know.

today i met her. she came down to tiong bahru after meeting with her old friend. after walking around and deciding that there isnt much to shop at tiong bahru, i send her home. but still we did buy some thing from tiong bahru. some cool stuff. will be in pic later =)

send her home, finish doing it, take photo, watch shrek 2, and its 11 already. have been going out a lil too much recently. o.o. anyway, tml supposed to be a sentosa day. we shall see how again =(

this are the pics