Monday, February 05, 2007
am i a guy? i dont seem to understand guys thinking, mentality, and behaviour anymore. am i still a guy? or had i grew to be a man? or had i remained as a boy? or my mind had changed as though i had gone through a sex change?
i dont understand guys thinking anymore..will a guy definitely talk to girls when they have nothing to do online? wad makes a guy feel so gay talking to a guy? i had been talking to some guys online recently, because i dont feel like chatting with the girls online? not all actually, some i do talk to but we dont talk long, neither do i go around talking to attached people bout much stuff. seldom la, i dont feel comfortable. im afraid. u see, i dont erm, see a point in doing so, and i scared ppl might misunderstand. u ppl got it?
i had been thinking. wad i hated ppl to do, had i been doing it? i hope i didnt, and i think i didnt exactly do as they did too. some tings are jus too extreme for people to do, for a good guy like me to do. am i really as good as it seems? or am i jus a hypocrite? am i a hypocrite? wad makes a hypocrite and wad makes a gentleman? wad defines a gentleman and wad defines a lover? wad a lover do a gentleman doesnt? how to be a lover and a gentleman? is it possible to be a lover and a gentleman?
k, i think i feel like talking more bout this. i really dunno who am i, where to classify myself. i need assistance. and definitely, if i can mind read, i would like to have the skill. should i go pick up a skill or 2 on hypnotisation? it can make me realise facts, facts that i didnt know, that i tink i know but didnt, facts that i can never imagine. i nv know wad kinda person i am to others. am i being a friendly guy? a good guy? a bastard guy? a pretty irritating one? or would they classify me as a good friend or a bad friend, a good influence or a bad influence.
i really wish to ask, am i a good boyfriend? had i been more of a boyfriend or a friend to u? had i not portrait myself appropriately? had i been unreasonable? mm unwilling to change? or had i been not giving enough, not giving yet wanna take? i wanna know all my weakness. if some one out there see this post and had any comments, pls tell me on msn. i will be more than happy to know my weaknesses. the goods could be faked, but i tink the weaknesses cant be. once u revealed it, thats it, u will be rmbed for that forever. however, no one will rmb ur good. when no one know of your good, is it because u had no good? or too little? or being forgo-ed?
i dont understand human beings. humans ah. wad are u ppl tinking? if i dont understand humans mentality, am i still classifed under humans or r-tard?
had been working on many things recently, so many, so concentrated. im surprised. im studying, im doing hard in some stuffs, and im learning new handicrafts (though i had failed, but it will not fail me). im working hard. had it been seen? lets jus pray for
i dont understand guys thinking anymore..will a guy definitely talk to girls when they have nothing to do online? wad makes a guy feel so gay talking to a guy? i had been talking to some guys online recently, because i dont feel like chatting with the girls online? not all actually, some i do talk to but we dont talk long, neither do i go around talking to attached people bout much stuff. seldom la, i dont feel comfortable. im afraid. u see, i dont erm, see a point in doing so, and i scared ppl might misunderstand. u ppl got it?
i had been thinking. wad i hated ppl to do, had i been doing it? i hope i didnt, and i think i didnt exactly do as they did too. some tings are jus too extreme for people to do, for a good guy like me to do. am i really as good as it seems? or am i jus a hypocrite? am i a hypocrite? wad makes a hypocrite and wad makes a gentleman? wad defines a gentleman and wad defines a lover? wad a lover do a gentleman doesnt? how to be a lover and a gentleman? is it possible to be a lover and a gentleman?
k, i think i feel like talking more bout this. i really dunno who am i, where to classify myself. i need assistance. and definitely, if i can mind read, i would like to have the skill. should i go pick up a skill or 2 on hypnotisation? it can make me realise facts, facts that i didnt know, that i tink i know but didnt, facts that i can never imagine. i nv know wad kinda person i am to others. am i being a friendly guy? a good guy? a bastard guy? a pretty irritating one? or would they classify me as a good friend or a bad friend, a good influence or a bad influence.
i really wish to ask, am i a good boyfriend? had i been more of a boyfriend or a friend to u? had i not portrait myself appropriately? had i been unreasonable? mm unwilling to change? or had i been not giving enough, not giving yet wanna take? i wanna know all my weakness. if some one out there see this post and had any comments, pls tell me on msn. i will be more than happy to know my weaknesses. the goods could be faked, but i tink the weaknesses cant be. once u revealed it, thats it, u will be rmbed for that forever. however, no one will rmb ur good. when no one know of your good, is it because u had no good? or too little? or being forgo-ed?
i dont understand human beings. humans ah. wad are u ppl tinking? if i dont understand humans mentality, am i still classifed under humans or r-tard?
had been working on many things recently, so many, so concentrated. im surprised. im studying, im doing hard in some stuffs, and im learning new handicrafts (though i had failed, but it will not fail me). im working hard. had it been seen? lets jus pray for
// posted by Pang Boon Peng @ Monday, February 05, 2007 
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