Sunday, February 11, 2007
after today's entry, or i should say, after this entry, this blog will be hibernated till valentines day. alright? thanks for reading folks
life couldnt be as worst. i received a msg that broke my heart. maybe not say break my heart, abit too exaggerating, but a msg that hurts me deeply
other than the msg, wad was said had an impact too.
anyway, dont drop by and ask me wad la. i had "selected" a few advisors already. the job applications had all been filled up. thank u for interest
after all these, my heart feel hurt, my eyes feel wet. i felt as though an 7" knife had been stabbed directly at my heart. at least 7", i dunno, cause its a knife that is invisible. u can only feel when u are stabbed
so..i drag my feets, my body home. i refused to take bus. i walk from penisular plaza home. i walk past the new shopping centre at Clarke Quay MRT. it wasnt exactly opened but there is a bikini shop there. so i msged her to go and have a look with her friend whom had fetched her after her guitar lesson. how sweet.
its always nice to have people picking u up, and sending u home
along the way back, couples are all over. small kids, young adults, old citizens. how deep are their love? ahh..a sudden jealousy and heartache drop by to visit me again. where is my old gf? where is the owner of my heart? there is no co-ownership, its a sole owner situation.
when i walk home, i think alot. alot. i dont know what more i can do to prove my sincerity, my love. people tell me, use time to show. by the time when time is on my side, she might have been by others side.
she dont understand. she tink i hate the feeling of defeat thus i want her back. im pretty sad when i heard that. my tears almost come dwn when im in the MRT. i never knew that i had displayed myself as such a person. wad kinda person am i? how much more can i take? i feel like on the verge to going crazy or wad.
so what now? valentines gift is almost ready. i had got 90% ready. enough effort inside? i believe i did put, but i wondered if it will be sensed. the gifts are 90%, i am near to 0%. where had my confidence gone? my prides are swollen, my tears had dropped. will i be the next to drop?
and im surprised. yesterday i took a single meal for entire day. today, im taking no meal. the only food i ate was, a macdonald sundae, a chocolate one. is it sweet? is it bittle? i cant really taste. i spend my last few coins on it. sweet sweet lunch of mine to last till dinner.
thats all people. thank u
life couldnt be as worst. i received a msg that broke my heart. maybe not say break my heart, abit too exaggerating, but a msg that hurts me deeply
other than the msg, wad was said had an impact too.
anyway, dont drop by and ask me wad la. i had "selected" a few advisors already. the job applications had all been filled up. thank u for interest
after all these, my heart feel hurt, my eyes feel wet. i felt as though an 7" knife had been stabbed directly at my heart. at least 7", i dunno, cause its a knife that is invisible. u can only feel when u are stabbed
so..i drag my feets, my body home. i refused to take bus. i walk from penisular plaza home. i walk past the new shopping centre at Clarke Quay MRT. it wasnt exactly opened but there is a bikini shop there. so i msged her to go and have a look with her friend whom had fetched her after her guitar lesson. how sweet.
its always nice to have people picking u up, and sending u home
along the way back, couples are all over. small kids, young adults, old citizens. how deep are their love? ahh..a sudden jealousy and heartache drop by to visit me again. where is my old gf? where is the owner of my heart? there is no co-ownership, its a sole owner situation.
when i walk home, i think alot. alot. i dont know what more i can do to prove my sincerity, my love. people tell me, use time to show. by the time when time is on my side, she might have been by others side.
she dont understand. she tink i hate the feeling of defeat thus i want her back. im pretty sad when i heard that. my tears almost come dwn when im in the MRT. i never knew that i had displayed myself as such a person. wad kinda person am i? how much more can i take? i feel like on the verge to going crazy or wad.
so what now? valentines gift is almost ready. i had got 90% ready. enough effort inside? i believe i did put, but i wondered if it will be sensed. the gifts are 90%, i am near to 0%. where had my confidence gone? my prides are swollen, my tears had dropped. will i be the next to drop?
and im surprised. yesterday i took a single meal for entire day. today, im taking no meal. the only food i ate was, a macdonald sundae, a chocolate one. is it sweet? is it bittle? i cant really taste. i spend my last few coins on it. sweet sweet lunch of mine to last till dinner.
thats all people. thank u
UNDER HIBERNATION
// posted by Pang Boon Peng @ Sunday, February 11, 2007 
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