nothing more than nothing

i never felt so reluctant bout overseas training before. maybe its because, its not part of requirement anymore. or maybe its just, because of you

i just dont wanna get out of bed, dont wanna go anywhere. if i get sick and can dont go, i hope i fall sick. shit. haven got such feelings for long long time.

long, long time

ok so its coming already. damn life as civilian is just so short. im feeling like its back to old school days again. sleeping late, waking up even later. life cant be better

for the past week, i have totally revert back to who i am. no more acting of being good, no more restriction. no more people to give me extra or give me any work to do. im just me. enjoy helping my mum taking care of kids, going out and have a stroll with her and so on. life seriously cant be better

it just make me wanna.. ORD

and back to the fact. im leaving tomorrow for cresendo. its just, boring. i just dont wanna go. its stupid, redundant and whatever. 3 weeks. just 3 weeks.

i cant wait to be back. happy ultra early birthday

k so today we had out "amazing 24"

its amazing, its fun. no doubt its a nice idea and i really like it. however, i dont like the fact that there are people with integrity issue. we came in last. but at least we had integrity in the game and we kinda enjoyed it. rather than taking bus or what, we walked throughout, in the rain. thats what u call integrity. thats what u call pride

other than that, im going to sign extra again and im going to celebrate cos im going to be top scorer already. ha. i think pioneers are really quite fuck up esp the commanders cos we are always getting into trouble with the law. or are the laws out to catch us at fault?