nothing more than nothing

today is hell dumb..

we went to de pirated store in bukit merah...i was looking for FREE games...u noe wat i mean..=D

tuyuan took NP de free bag...its veri ez to put cd inside...so we tot perhaps we put it in n go...den i took winning elevn 9 n put inside..put 1/2 way le...he shout WTF U DOING?..zzz..den i took it out n put it back...den stay inside hell long den go home..with no profit...zz

den ts also attempt to kop..but de person saw it..cuz his bag too mani tings inside..hard to stuff cd inside..lol...den so de person c den he haf to take it out..zzz...all failed...tmd...fark up..HAIZ~

den earlier on went gym..din do much..slpy...haha..YAWNS

cty says:
hmm
cty says:
can u d/l hentai usin bitcomet?
cty says:
LOL
S for Study M for Mug SM? says:
i dun c hentai for god sake
cty says:
ok
cty says:
how abt porn?

mmm..i duno..i wana write bout 2 tings..mmm...ya

ADVICE

1)

i duno...i feel veri weird now...i gif ppl advices...ppl dun listen..make wrong judgements and moves @ all de wrong time..den regret...ppl...y ppl r so stubborn..?..sometime a human cant learn till smth really happen then they will understand..is that rite?

my 1st example..cty..lol..he mite read tis..but its lidat..mmm... a guy wif a good grade that is able to go JC..but he isnt suitable to go JC...ask him go poly he dowan..den 1st yr he failed his jc..i gave him de idea again...he dun listen..go retake...well retake isnt that bad...for that perhaps i tink he mite make de rite choice or so..since he haf intentions for U...@ tt time ba...den well..fail again...so now den go poly...not say i mean to suan ppl or wat...make a rite move..noe wat suits u...dun run when u cant walk...dun throw a ball when u cant hold it..

2)

it is regarding ots..seriously..i feel sad over tis too...he was in a not so good situation now..he was in a triple science class in sec sch...best class...den failed english..retake english while studying in MI...den completed yr 1 in MI n deciding if shd move on to JC...he asked me bout it..i tink he shdnt...de pressure..de ppl..de environment..is all different..mus adapt de human..de human heart..de school...de teaching style etc..not tt ez ting to do..but he wanted to go JC..saying that it has a better studying environment as every1 dere works for it...i tot if tts his reason..go for it..jus do it..but aft tt...stress caught him..haunt him..took him dwn...dwn to earth...or even hell...now that he is trying to get himself out..i feeel quite sad for him

3)

now..ray wana quit sch...he din went for exam for 2 paper...he said he had his own reasons..own tings that he mus settle 1st den he set off again...another reason is cuz he dun like de cuz...as for de rest..they r personal prob that dun wish to be said..he got his mind set fixed...no matter wat i say also no use..cuz i cant change his mind..but..he must really tink...yr 3 gona be..y gif up cuz u dun like..dun like also study 2 yr le...i also in acc 2 yr le..since when i like it..NEVER..haiz..nevermind..19 yr old shd b mature enuff to tink for urself...jus hope u haf no regrets..


so..3 failure to change a guys mind..a lot of tinkin going thru my mind..is that im not convincing enuff?..or that im not able to understand dem n gif dem a best situation..or to dem..im jus irritating?

anyway..to de 2nd point..

FRIEND

i tell bebe..we shd start to tink deep..yrs back..how mani ppl can we get to play basketball...aft counting...we can @ least get 10+ or even 20...rite now?...3...how mani guys haf we lost...dun say guy..friends..how mani friends do we acty haf now?

good friends...how mani of dem stay..?...till now...we go out...hu do we call n how mani can we call?...we 3 again...3..me bebe tuyuan

isnt tt pathetic..?issit tt wat we sAy r too bastard..or wat..wats acty wrong wif us?..smth must be damn wrong wif us..wat happen to us now?

we shd tink bout it..or maybe jus me n bebe..or perhaps jus me...ty stil goes out wif his own batch of JC friends...bebe stil goes out wif dem once in a while...wat bout me?..i either go out wif gf or tis 2..if not jus bball...is bball all my life is about?..not being able to play well too if thats de case...life isnt fun..im having a career low...lol..

how mani true friends do every1 haf?...i tink more den me..=

fark de farking faker..

today IFA as de 1st paper of my exams...i did it finish by time..BUT fark it..let me tell u de tings i got wrong...3 main points tt seriously get me feeling farked up

1) i commit de same mistake as common test..EXACTLY SAME...put wrong side again...tt time onli get 1/2 mark for tt..now i tink perhaps 1 ba..cuz got 1 part dunit write out 1...so i tink shd haf mark for tt..=

2) for de mistake..i change it 4 or 5 times..4 OR 5 TIMES LA...wtf man...its either debit or credit...after tinking for so long..in de final few pathetic 2 min..i go change de ans..so fark up la...zz..i was tinking over it for de last 10 mins!

3) cuz i was tinking about it for de last 10 mins..I DIN DO A 10 MARKS QUESTION!!!...wtf la..tmd...fark ur backside..

mmm..some 1 ask me how..when i do wrong..i tink...mmm..CRY LOR...T.T

AH!!...farking tired...bball today..WOO...

yea babe...tml my ifa paper..today i go bball..kan zai rite..?..its fun...starting quite stiff...den aft tt playing wif other ppl...feel better..i like to play wif others..anway its yongming's day man..he shoot n shoot n burn n burn...kns...go army din touch balls for 2 mth le stil so good...zz...nx week weilun gona play wif us too..cool man

anyway used de ball ym bought @ toyrus..LOL...damn cool..9.95 bucks for a leather ball..felt tt it is smaller n lighter...but good to shoot...cool leh..shd go get 1...MMM...played wif de outsider again when ym is gone...me ty bebe vs thai boi hardaway and big game...we won...15-14...was on fire @ 1st...shooting n burning..feel good too...den lost touch...den get back..den lost touch...in de end we played quite well wif some lil bit of teamwork...n we won by 1...lol...they were 14 n we were 12 i tink...den get back 3 balls to win..fun...FUN!...xD

ok...gona do some past yr paper to chiong for de final IFA...=D...wish me good luck..

awww..i duno wats gona happen to me in a few weeks time..i cant really study..though i understand whats gona go on n happen..=

well..i duno wat im toking too..=S..lets haf a look @ de exams n de "comments"

audit - theory based..cant kill me..i suppose?
claw - open book..HAHA..cant kill me too i guess
ifa - mmm..have been skipping abit of its lesson..perhaps abit of difficulty..but i shd b able to clear tis
costing - the final killer..nv ever listen a ting he said.

so...wat now?..what shd i study 1st?..i haf my hands in for audit..and ifa...claw i dun tink i intend to study anyway..but costing..WELL~~

i tink i wil haf to dip my whole body into costing..not a tough module but tricky...choosing of figures are important and so is the steps to get de ans..

MMM~...just wish me good luck..i wil need dem

SCORPIO WOMAN

A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her character.

A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong.

She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has all the woman's trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they knowing it.

f you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, then you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling.

She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she start to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career.

She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no "may be", or "perhaps". If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered.

Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress.

She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew.

If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you are nice to hear, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman.

She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and reputations, and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being "Poor". She loves to have face, so if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a feeling of being a "Nobody".

If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early

PISCES MAN

He is very emotional and always allow himself to be very emotional. He can have a good night sleep and be in a good mood, and less than few hours at work he can be very moody. He does not understand things or try to understand things easily. If you notice him carefully, you will notice what kind of moods he is in.

He is a thinker and able to do well at work and always succeed. His normal gestures mean he always look at other people faults, but he will not talk about it. He has the ability to know your thought and able to tell you what you are thinking about.

He can mostly memorize all his anger, his loves. They are his important secrets and he will keep them to himself and will never let you know. He is not a very ambition man and careless about his position in society. Wealth does not drawn his attention, because he is not greedy man and as well he thinks money is not something that will last. He could be very careless about his future. He does not like to fight against all odds, but instead following the stream and make life easier. Sometimes because he likes to take an easy path, which cause him very unsteady future.

He is kind and slightly lazy, but it is his cute character. He hates rules and regulations. He will never look down on people. He is a polite guy and can be very aggressive when he is mad. He loves to think that he lives in a beautiful world and surround by nice people, so if he finds his world is cruel and not what he expects, he will live in his world instead.

His other charm is that he is a funny guy, and it is his real weapon. He can tease you and yet make it looks like one of his joke. Even when he is sad, he still has that funny face, so you could hardly tell if he is mad or depress. He likes to hide his feeling and help other people especially those who need friend or lonely.

He will be everything that you want and everything you do not want. He has a chance to make it as much as a chance to fail. He can determine to make it work and can do it well, except he tends to lost his energy with other important things, that's how he miss many of his good opportunity.

He can be happy and content by himself. What he think is important is not "Love" ,but firm status and stability. He has plenty of love for you.

He is a good speaker, as much as he is a good listener. When he is with you, he wants to be happy. He understand his partner's emotional. He likes to take a long rest and sometimes being alone. If he needs to be alone, try not to disturb him.

He is a sensitive, quiet , shy and easily hurt. He wants to feel worthy. He can be mad and noisy, but once he calm down, he will be that happy person again. He is not a jealous or possessive guy, and if he feels jealous he will hide it. He has many friends of both sex, and he care about his friends. He likes to have lots of friends, so you can not get jealous or else you will loose him. He likes beautiful things, so if a pretty woman walk by he will look ,so do not get mad at him knowing this fact.

When he is lonely or feeling sad, be close to comfort him. He does not like to take advice,so if you want him to listen or to follow your advice, you have to act as a good sample for him first. He likes a cheery and a smart woman. If you treat him like he is your special person, then he will be that special person for you. He will trust you if he is in love, but try not to over doing it and spoil him too much. You have to know yourself worth all the time too.

today newpaper got a nice article..gona type it here..its long..but nice..read if interested.

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Part 1- introduction.

His heart transplant added 14 years to his life- and what wonderful years they turned out to be.

The change of heart changed the man.

The pre-heart transplant Samyval Tarasamy was often stressed with work. he was hot-tempered, demanding of his wife and firm with his children.

he was not just a typical hardworking husband and father

he was determined to more than provide for his family, doing heavy menial work at then-public utilities board (PUB)

then his heart began to fail him

but he wouldnt let it slow him down. he kept it from his family and friends and continued to slog away.

but doctors gave him the shocking news: he had only 6 months to live. he was only 49 then

Part 2 - Life-Giving Miracle

then a miracle happened.he had a heart transplant.

but not only was his physical body resurrected by the new heart, but Mr Samyval also had a change of heart about the way he lived his life.

he began to relax, to savour his life instead of hurrying through it.

with help from his employers, he represented singapore @ the world transplant games.

he began to love his family more, watch his children grow up and became a doting grandfather.

describing myself as "grouchy and suicidal", mr Samyval had told the straits times in 2002:"when i learnt about the donor heart,i just cried."

discharged about 2 weeks later, he put his hand to his chest and told himself:"i will treasure my new heart"

but singapore 6th heart transplant patient died lasat month @ 63

last week, in an interview with the new paper, his wife, mrs Letchimi,57, described him as a "typical Indian man" who was sometimes hot tempered before the operation.

the couple lived @ bukit batok masionette with their daughter and son in law

mr Samyval was a father with strict family rules. he was a husband with strict relationship rules

the couple must never disagree in front of his children

he made it a point to discuss matters with his wife after they had gone to bed

but that was before the transplant

years on, the grandfather looked forward to family gatherings and to tease his 3 grandchildren.

as a retiree @ 62, he also helped his wife of 40 years peel onions and vegetables.

but even then, some things didnt change.

he never said "i love u" to his wife or held her hand in public.

"no,no,no" mrs letchimi blushed to that suggestion, putting her hands to her cheek

"but he needed me to be with him wherever he went- and i followed. i have depended emotionally on him since the day we got married"

beside urging his wife to take part in charities walks with him, he also went to Budapest in Hungary for the 12th world transplant games in 1999.

Part 3- turning point

mr Samyval's life changed in 1991

doctor gave him 6 months to livev-only 16% of his heart was functioning.

he was diagnosed with heart failure

he used to have bad coughs, chest pains and body aches. he was often irritable.

but as the family sole breadwinner, he turned up @ work daily, even taking on additional shifts so that his wife and 3 children, then 23,17 and 13, would not sense that anything was amiss

all despite the fact that his heart was failing

then, within 6 weeks of being put on the waiting list, a late christmas present arrived.

a nurse rang his home and told his wife that a suitable heart donor had been found- a 31 year old chinese man who had died after falling from a tall building

the donor's heart was removed @ the NUH and rushed to the SGH for transplant, which took place on 27 dec

mr Samyval returned regularly to the national heart center(NHC) for cardiac-rehabilitation exercies.

the avid sport participant exercised daily, often cycling around his neighbourhood

to his 31 year old teacher daughter, ms vijaya, he was a "resilient man who never complained about his illness or blue black marks whenever he was discharged from the hospital"

he often had to return to hospital during those 14 years because of complications arising from his heart transplant

but throughout all his hospital stays, mr Samyval was the perfect patient.

even though he had tubes in both hands and both legs, he had the strength to look up from his hospital bed to see who was coming to visit.

and love was strong between him and his wife even though bedridden

nurses who tried to change his diaper would hear him joking bout waiting for his 'girlfriend' to perform the task instead.

recalling with a smile, mrs letchimi said:" nurses would joke, mrs Samyval, your husband is waiting for his girlfriuend to come"

then, on 19 jan this year, mr Samyval did not wake up for his usual morning walk

he refused to leave his room for breakfast. so mrs letchimi took breakfast into the room and they ate together, but he grew faint

a cardiometer reading showed his pulse had dropped drastically and he was immediately rushed to hospital

despite about of shingles last november, she didnt think her husband's condition was taking a turn for the worse

she said:" whenever he goes to ICU, he comes back. there were complications, but it was normal for us to go to the hospital

"the doctors there were good, they'd give him treatment and he would come back"

4 days later, mr Samyval became semi-conscious

he stopped talking, but still managed to ask for water.

said mrs vijaya:" he did everything the doctor told him to do. we have no regrets because the 14 years has given us time to repay everything he has done for us"

he died on 23 jan, following a massive heart attack

"i think he had left with us alot of his strenth," she added

it was a gift his wife and family can keep forever.

Part 4

she held his hand, knelt beside him and whispered into his ear:" im your wife here"

he was unable to speak, but teardrop rolled down his cheek.

he was still trying to live

then his children whispered:" its okay to go ,dad"

soon, he passed away

it was the family's love that kept mr Samyval tarasamy going - especially the love of his wife

last week, when the newpaper met mrs letchimi at her husband's prayers,16 days afther his death, she did not shed a tear.

she admitted she was feeling lonely. but when we visited her home last thursday, she gave us smiles and shared her recipe for love

she said:"i used to nurse him like he was a child"

a housewife for 25 years when mr Samyval received a new heart, she took on her 1st job as a pantry maid because it was her time to provide.

she also cooked 2 meals- 1 for her children, the other for her husband, spicing up his bland, healthy diet with ideas from cookbooks.

speaking of her arranged marriage, she held an old black and white photo of mr Samyval when he was 23 and said:"i was 17 and my uncle showed me this. i thought to myself,' such a good looking man for me?' "

said ms vijaya of her mother:" she doesnt realise how strong she was because she was emotionally supporting him."

the quiet woman felt it was normal to serve her husband simply because "he needs all that, and whateever he wants i'll do it for him"

"from the day we married, i was emotionally dependent on him.now, whatever i feel, i have no 1 to discuss with..i should learn to be independent, i thinkk"

shuck my god bro

he is damn a jerk...he is always treating every1 like a slave man..reach home aask mum make coffee for him..bath ask ppl take clothes for him some times..den also asking ppl to take ting for him when he can jux walk up n go over n take..n he always say he ned to use de com..if u wanna maple jux say...annyway maple is so lame now...marriage...blah blah..LAME...

ARGH

fine. im here to vent some anger. so everyone who read this can dont give a fuck bout me.

ok.i received warning letter from my teacher, saying that i didnt went school. the fact is that i DID go school, just that im late for more than 30 minutes. so i went in as usual and the teacher teach as usual. so i received the warning letter. so screwed up.my dad read the letter and was pushing the blame to my mmum, saying that she spoiled me all tis.

OK. lets see. if u think that your job of being a dad is just to give me money, perhaps call yourself my bank. U DONT GIVE A FUCK BOUT ME. all u know is to complain complain complain~. think bout it. what did u do for me before except working. u didnt concern bout me. u didnt praise me for anything. to u, im just another naughty asshole jerk right?

so u think mum is always the one at home, so she is the one that spoiled me? so i would like to ask u a question. AINT U HOME NOWADAYS TOO?. HOW LONG HAVE U BEING IDLING AT HOME? isnt that right? so mum is at home taking care of me, so u r saying your not?. guess so. all u know is to read newspaper watch tv eat and LOOKING AT OTHER PEOPLE WALLET. so thats a good way and the model way to be a father huh?..I SEE~! no wonder people say all good man are dead. i wont be a good man cause im gona learn from u.=D

if u think that ME being ABSENT for school is all mum's fault. think. IM BOTH OF U PEOPLE DE KIDS. SO U will have to do your job of taking care of me and also making sure i went etc. UNLESS u think that u r not my dad, then u can just tell me. more than happy to accept that =D



* if u think its all others fault, its high time u should think bout it AGAIN.